I see the thoughts of doom and gloom like whirlwinds encompassing me, luring me to run and take cover. I’ve learned the art of survival through a lifetime of struggle – one problem is fixed just to bring me to the next obstacle that I must face. But like a “do it yourself” youtube video with before-and-after pictures of a masterpiece that we desire, the results are never quite to par with our imagination of completion. My way never works out to plan.
In the life of Jesus as he led his disciples, I’m reminded of the story of him traveling with them in a boat. As the waves and wind and rain increased, the disciples became frightened. Meanwhile, Jesus slept. When absolute fear had overcame the disciples, they woke him up screaming, “Do you not care that we’re all going to die?” Jesus replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?”
Today I can almost place myself in that boat with them as I stare at this storm coming upon my family. I see no shore in sight, (no way out, no answers). And as my mind thumbs through possibilities, searching for solutions, my heart is continually crying out to the Lord “Where are you? Save us. Why aren’t you speaking to me and telling me how to fix this?” He remains silent.
Like the disciples, I’ve seen the Lord perform miracles in our lives. I’ve tasted of His goodness and His grace and His mercy. I’ve witnessed His perfect arrangement of circumstances that are far too clever and purposeful to be considered coincidence. Yet here I sit with my heart troubled, asking myself “Where did He go? Did he fall asleep and forget about me? Is He going to save me this time, like he has in the times before? What if He doesn’t wake up in time? What if these waves cause me to drown?
26 He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
27 The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”
– Mathew 26
The Lord said He will never leave us or forsake us. He said all things work together for the good for those who are called according to his purpose. So, then, why is it so hard to see through life’s storms and believe it won’t take us under?
Heavenly Father, today I ask you to give me eyes to see beyond the things that are troubling me. I ask you to help me to rest in faith, remembering all the times that you have helped me and believing that you will help me again. Lord I know that you can make a way, when there is no way, but help me with my unbelief. Even if I can’t hear you, even it seems like you’ve fallen asleep, remind me always that you’re right here next to me in this boat and that you will not let me drown. Father as I tell myself to “be still and know that you are God”, please give me the patience and peace and faith that I need to make it through this storm. I pray that your will be done in our lives and that our purpose you have called us to will bring glory to your name.
In Jesus name… Amen.